For a lot of things...
For things to be easy.
I have lots of plans to do stuff. I have my life planned out and it all looks good.
... my problem is doing something about it.


I only write when I'm upset. She pulled hard on the rubber band that never leaves her wrist.I only write when I'm upset. by ~Rukisa
She wears it for occasions like this.
To mask the agony she puts her heart through.
Pull
Snap
Pull
Snap
Pull
Snap.
No more panic attacks,
No more pain,
No more hurt,
No fear,
No sadness.
Just the sound, the gentle sting, the thought she's doing more damage than she actually is.
Just by pulling,
Control.
Because she sure a hell can't control anything else in her chaotic life.
Snap snap snap over and over.
Her wrist red and welted but she doesn't care.
She smiles large as the snapping covers her pain and she breathes back tears.